Giggle therapy

We've had a run of frustration in our d-world lately. Hannah had her quarterly Endo appointment two weeks before Christmas. Her doctor made some tweaks to her insulin doses as she had started running higher. Since then, and compounded by all the holiday carb guesstimating, we've had some ugly numbers. We were working through it but the straw that broke this camel's back was our sensor change December 30th.  The first attempt for some reason did not stick and the whole sensor remained stuck in the inserter. It looked ok so I pushed it back into to loaded position and tried again. This time it stuck to her but would not link to the transmitter. Tears and frustration as we prepared for a third poke with a needle that was getting larger by the second!!!!  Thankfully the third try was a success and we were up and running. Most days we can brush this stuff off; d-care is our normal, but that day it was just too much for me. Hannah was in tears and I was too. 

Isaac had a birthday party that night so we girls headed out for some retail therapy. Hannah had a gift card to Claire's and we spent an hour? Three? In that store while she browsed the christmas clearance rack and everything else in the store. We finished the evening with supper at Wendy's. It was a great evening with my girl and we shared lots of giggles. I was reminded again of how resilient she is; I am. We may get knocked down, but we don't stay down. And laughter really is the best medicine sometimes.

Faith

This verse has been rolling through my mind this week.  When I look back before Hannah's diagnosis, my faith was there, but it was small and untested.  Since then, we have had to rely so much more on God's graces and mercies, God truly is taking our small faith and doing big things with it!

Aside from the overall way God is working on our faith, He is also applying this verse to my decision to ride or not ride with Jason next summer in the Ride to Cure.    With my little bit of knowledge of cycling and my little bit of faith that I CAN do this, God is teaching me that I've got to start somewhere.  You can't move the mountain the first day or even the first year.  He can take my small seed of faith and turn it into something great. 

Going to tuck this verse in my heart and keep it close.  

Spinning

Winter is here.  Our gorgeous fall came to an abrupt end on Sunday with crashing temperatures and four inches of snow.  I'm pretty sure bike rides are going to be few and far between until spring. 

 

So I drug my feet to the Y today for my first ever spin class today.  The good news is that I didn't die! :)  Actually, I think I did pretty well.  At least until the standing climb near the end of class that had me stopping and sitting on a chair in the corner to catch my breath and recover from my lightheadedness.  But I got back on (just in time for the cool down!) and I'll be back.  After class, the instructor told me I did great and then my next door spin neighboor told me that it helps to eat something before class; to help keep your blood sugar stable.  I laughed to myself- hello Melissa? Do you know nothing about blood sugar and exercise????  

Anyway, it was hard, but I felt invigorated afterwards.  That is one thing diabetes has taught me, that by doing one hard, challenging thing, other hard things start to look doable.  Giving your child a shot when she is crying, "no mommy, I don't want a shot"  makes volunteering or speaking up for accommodations at school less intimidating.  I'm learning I'm stronger than I think I am. 

Frosted

 Rough day on the bike today. The weather warmed up nicely so it wasn't that.  Mostly I was in a funk to be riding alone again.  A couple vicious looking dogs and some crazy wind left me winded and worried last week.  They had me looking at how far I have to go, and took my eyes off the fact that I am turning my "I can'ts"  into "I dids."  

So starting out today I felt like I had an insurmountable mountain in front of me and I was alone.  Sigh.  Second I feel like I am racing time and MUST RACK UP MILES!!!  Double sigh.

Last night, I contemplated going to the Y this morning instead of riding after my friend cried "frost warning" and opted not to ride today. Looking back, I probably should have done that. Yes it was a gorgeous afternoon, but I think I need some cross training, not so much for my body but for my soul.  

All was not lost however;  I did stop and treat myself to Beans and Cream.  The best part?  They are having their anniversary celebration and mochas were just $1.70.  I got out there, got a few miles in, and stopped and smelled the coffee beans. 

You might be a d-mom if....

You text your husband a number unrelated to diabetes without thinking about it and he freaks out!  

Cold ten mile today. Gunning for 500 before snow flies!

Oh October!

October has arrived and already I am feeling the pressure to get a few more rides in before the winter sets in. I can feel the cold starting to sink in and I am not excited about it!  Maybe it's the rain that's cut down on my rides this week or maybe it's that we haven't turned the furnace on so our house has been a balmy 64 degrees. Either way I was happy for sunshine today and a nice long coffee ride!  

September

September was a beautiful month for riding!  I rode a total of 187 miles!  And woot- I did roll over 300 on the 30th!  That was on a great 21 mile ride with friends.